better.

long car rides never proved themselves to be good for anything.

until you realize that you're going places.

not only literally, but metaphorically.

you see, nothings changed.

only you and only me.

we are nothing.

you are nothing.

well, you're something.

to someone.

that someone used to be me.

and before me, 

that someone was her.

for you.

confused yet?

somehow i wonder what i was for you

a valuable lesson learned?

a penny spent?

too often i think of where i am

where i have been, or where i'm going

too often i loose track of sleep, 

time, and thoughts

my mind overflows my heart,

and my heart overflows my mind.

its been too long.

my heads in constant chaos 

and it keeps me so deceived.

i wish you well

and thank you for teaching me all that you did.

long car rides never proved themselves to be good for anything.

until you realize that you're going places.

not only literally, but metaphorically.

self reflection.

i fell
and you didn't even stumble

reflection appreciated
the soon to be longing over unanswerable questions

selective thinking

the possibility of forgetting the existence of something real 

undeniable glory

given to the God who made me stronger and wiser.

i'm undeserving of grace. i'm undeserving of acceptance.

"the cross- where righteousness and wrath kiss."

what a beautiful thing.

priorities scattered

idolization was staring me down.

you hurt me.

i wept and wondered

all the while, He was working

preparing my heart a day before.

"As disciples of Jesus, being in a relationship with Him must be our focus."

11.23.10

Thank you God for preparing my heart

I Had No Idea.

your ways are not my ways

and i'm glad.

frenzy.

Your fingertips across my skin

The palm trees swaying in the wind images

You sang me spanish lullabies

The sweetest sadness in your eyes clever trick

Well i'd never want to see you unhappy

I thought you'd want the same for me

Goodbye my almost lover

Goodbye my hopeless dream

I'm trying not to think about you

Can't you just let me be?

So long my luckless romance

My back is turned on you

Should've known you'd bring me heartache

Almost lovers always do

We walked along a crowded street

You took my hand and danced with me in the shade

And when you left you kissed my lips

You told me you would never ever forget these images no

Well i'd never want to see you unhappy

I thought you'd want the same for me

Goodbye my almost lover

Goodbye my hopeless dream

I'm trying not to think about you

Can't you just let me be?

So long my luckless romance

My back is turned on you

Should've known you'd bring me heartache

Almost lovers always do

I cannot go to the ocean

I cannot try the streets at night

I cannot wake up in the morning

Without you on my mind

So you're gone and i'm haunted

And i bet you are just fine

Did i make it that easy to walk

Right in and out of my life?

Goodbye my almost lover

Goodbye my hopeless dream

I'm trying not to think about you

Why can't you just let me be?

So long my luckless romance

My back is turned on you

Should've known you'd bring me heartache

Almost lovers always do

feeble.

somebody's got to teach you how to fly, kid.

you took off on your journey

so many times but you got stuck

you couldn't move

and you wept.

those clouds you're standing on are man-made, kid

formulas and meaningless ideas

interrupting your selfish schemes

you don't know the difference

so you wept.

cry a little more, kid

you don't seem to care

one more day and you've got it figured out

someday you will understand it all, kid

and you will weep

because you wish you had known sooner.

John 14:27

^"27 Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid."

waves

We need to start becoming

affirmation.

this is really getting old.

tock.

it has just seemed so apparent to me lately that

time is what heals us

time is what breaks us

time is what allows us to think

time is what we hope for

time is what some of us feel like we need

time is on your wall

and on your wrist

clearly, you are aware.

we must stop and think 

about what exactly we are spending our time on.

is it inadequately or sufficiently spent?

growing, learning, and loving.

i have undoubtedly 

given myself something to think about.

"my heart's in constant chaos and it keeps me so deceived" 

"capture my mind with You "